I don't know what I did

Or maybe it's just this morning,
But today I woke up, put on my clothes and realised that I looked skinnier!
I started drinking tea, which apparently is supposed to be good for your health & losing weight, but this change is insane!
I don't know what it is, but I love it!

It's been a week - and I feel great.

Last night I had a movie night with my mum & I was very excited and surprise to realise that I couldn't eat as much chocolate as I usually would have e cause my body didn't feel like it!
I think the best feeling is knowing that I can overcome what used to be my biggest downfall.
I haven't done the comparison yet, I just took the photo and uploaded it (because otherwise I become gutless), and maybe there isn't an improvement, but there definitely is on the inside!
Loving life right now.

Week 1.

So as of this moment I'm starting this jump up drink up challenge..
This is embarrassing but here are some photos of my starting goal.
Week 1 - 1 minute of jump rope, 1 l of water per day.
I missed November first but who really cares...
This combined with healthy eating - it's happening.
Someone ought to start praying!

Size 14?!

Yesterday was devastating. I fell in love with this beautiful dress and I tried on my usual size (12) and it was too small! I almost cried. Like I joked about crying because I couldn't have the dress, but in reality I was actually thinking 'I've gained too much, now I can't have what I've always had' I was so devastated.
The thing is, instead of exercising & doing what I should have done, I did what most people fall into the trap of doing. I ate junk food and lazed around the house feeling sorry for myself.

I have friends that are judgemental and always pay people out for being fat etc. I actually don't like it, and sometimes I feel like I'm doing this for them. But then I realise its not for them. I'm doing it so I don't have to feel like crap around them, but also so that I feel healthy & good about myself.

What are your motivations? Is it for yourself or everyone else? Because everyone else doesn't work. You can only people please for so long. Make yourself passionate. That's what I'm struggling with at the moment, but I know I can achieve so much more with passion & drive!
PASSION!!!!!!!
Until next time,
X

Can I be honest for a moment?

I'm Kirsty, i'm 18 years old and I weigh 65kg. I have the kind of body that puts all your fat in your stomache instead of evenly distributing it. And it sucks.
I got serious about training at the beginning of the year when I used to weigh 80kg, and then I did an amazing job and got myself to where I am now. Except I got stuck. And I gave up.
So here I am again at 65kg. I haven't gained weight, except I know I should have lost it by now! But when I got stuck I went back to my old habits.
I run a mountain about once a week, but I don't follow it up with clean eating or any other exercise.
But I will.

Whenever I exercise, I cry, because I get so frustrated that I can't do things that I should be able to do. But i've come to the conclusion that i'm never going to get better unless I push through. So I guess that's what this blog is about.
It's about pushing through.

I'm not going to promise a daily update, because lets face it, I suck at that. But I do promise i'll be genuine. I'll be real.

With love,
Kirsty.

Thought for the day.
"Do you know you're stronger than you think? You can do things far better than you even know. Power on, push through and believe in yourself."